What's my freaking problem?!

Tyra Shena

Member
I'm writing this with hope that someone can help me find the inner courage I some how lost along the way. Thanks for reading I've been doing make -up / makeovers for 7+ years it all started with A family members prom and after here and there wedding and other events started coming into play where I volunteered my free(at that time) services! And always had great feed back. But in these last 2yrs I've decided to look further into becoming a makeup artist... Now the time is here and all I wanna do is run and hide, I have so many different talents that I have given up on when its time to show case my work (ex. I've been styling hair since my teen years) I was recently told by a beauty boutique to start a FB and create a website along with business cards and I've only done half of those things the only thing I have completed is a before and after portfolio! Why you ask? I don't always like my work I feel it's typical anyone can do it... I honestly do not see where it's as special as everyone say it is! I don't even consider myself a Make-up Artist! at what point can I deservingly claim that title? I'm at a lost for words with myself... but I love doing this and meeting new people making ppl smile and I keep asking myself what the hell is wrong with me? I have a wedding this weekend and I wanna do the best for this bride but deep down inside I feel I have lost my mojo. We've done 2 demos and she loves her look but to me it so blah I know it's her decision and I will do what she likes. Her bridesmaid is another story she has texted me 3 different looks after approving 2 other looks (she dictated through a mirror)?! idk maybe she really didn't like the other 2 or maybe she doesn't know she has one face...? How do I get that excitement back that drive and passion? I feel lonely without it :cry:
 

Janice

Well-known member
What inspires you about makeup? Try to go back to when you started out in the hobby, what were the things you were doing differently back then? It just takes going back to that thing that made you feel so inspired to donate your time and skill to fuel that passion. I hope you can get it back.
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tirurit

Well-known member
Hi Tyra, what you are explaining sounds like a bit of strees and self-doubt. Janice's advise sounds like the thing to do, to go back to when you started and enjoy it again. There is a step between being critic with one's work and being self-sabotaging, avoid it! Good luck!!
 

IHughes

Well-known member
I think it's also because now you've put pressure on yourself now that you're thinking of becoming a "pro". You're obviously very good and people are really happy with you and nothing has changed but you have changed your perception towards it. Now you're wondering about things that didn't worry you before as you didn't give it the same importance. It's normal but you need to trust in your skills and try to feel like you're just doing your art or hobby or having fun like you used to. The only difference is that you'll get paid for it! Don't give up!! :)
 

Tyra Shena

Member
You guys are awesome with great insight! Ive been putting all my focus into remembering the joy I used to feel (as Janice mentioned earlier) and this encouragement really brightened my night... Thx some much:eyelove::encore:;)
 

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