TwiggyPop
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So with all the things I've been going through in the past two weeks I seriously can't even catch my breath anymore.
So I had the perfect man ( you can see him in the couples thread ), the perfect job, the perfect house ( I've been living here since before my man ) and the perfect friends. Even my car might not be perfect, but it was awesome for me. Everything has gone to complete and total shit for me. ( excuse my language, but I'm at the end of my rope ) Even as I'm writing this tears are streaming down my face and I can't stop it.
I starting dating Alex and even though we hadn't been dating for long ( 4 months ) I knew I wanted to marry him. He was the one guy who not only got my sense of humor, but would build on my jokes, he saw how ambitious I am, made me feel like I was worthwhile ( helped me on my resume, told me how great I am at what I do, sincerely laughed at my jokes, congratulated me on even the little things I accomplished and many more ) I started working for Sephora, my dream job ( read my post in industry discussion ) two years ago moved into an amazing house with a roommate that turned into a best friend and last december bought a great car.
Well, in the past couple weeks all of that went to shit. Alex would sometimes go 3-4 days without calling me, I would have to call him. Whenever I was about to give up he would send an " I miss you " text, he went to my work christmas party, but then I haven't talked to him in about 9 days. He already had one ( reliable ) excuse where he was in a car accident and didn't have my # when he was in the hospital. It really was a nasty accident too, but I feel like his excuses have run out. I know bad luck happens to people ( I have it! ) but he can't come up with another excuse considering how many he's come up with so far ( at least 3 ) In the same week I found out that my dream job at Sephora had come to an end ( again in the industry discussion, long story ) Two people within less than 12 hours hit my car! Once I was crossing a bridge on my way home from a closing shift when a woman ran a red light to jump in front of me, but she also tried to pull into my lane while she was too busy talking on her phone to realize I was there, she ran me into the side of the bridge ( I was so angry I threw my frozen bottle of Mt Dew at her windshield and drove off at the next red light since she had no intention of collecting information or even saying she was sorry ) the next morning an old man ran into the back of my car while sitting at a wield sign. A cop was sitting right there and saw how hard he hit me from a dead stop. He hit me so hard that the cappucino that I just bought flew into my middle console and it was literally 0 degrees that morning. It took me 5 seconds to check the back of my car and get back into my drivers seat before the cop came over to check on me, I told him I was ok, but in the middle of my sentence slipped about how it took literally 5 seconds for my cap. to freeze against my console. The old man jumped out and said he was sorry and that his foot slipped off the brake ( impossible consdiring how hard he hit me from a dead stop since my head hit the back of my seat so hard I almost choked on my own tongue ) but I was so concerned with getting to work on time that I let him go and went on my way to work. And at the same time my roommate was bitching at me about taking out the garbage on a day that I was almost running late for work, also putting away clean dishes from the dishwasher. There are 3 of us living in my house and 1 of us hasn't done a single thing in our house yet, but my roommate felt the need to bitch at me instead of the one person who hasn't done ANYTHING here in the 5-6 months that she's been living here. There's also more going on here with the cats, etc.
and on top of all of that all of my birthday plans have fell through tonight.
So basically I've had my professional life, personal life and home life go down the shitter in the past two weeks. I can't get away from ANYTHING right now, no matter where I go. I'm even getting hurt physically because of some of the bullshit going on with everything. I honestly cannot take another day of this, I honestly wish I could just be taken out on my next car ride and with peoples history of hitting my car it doesn't seem to be taking long.
I've never taken drugs before, but right now I can see how some people would turn to them. Give me anything, just knock me out and walk me through the door cuz I have no desire to see though my own eyes anymore.
So I had the perfect man ( you can see him in the couples thread ), the perfect job, the perfect house ( I've been living here since before my man ) and the perfect friends. Even my car might not be perfect, but it was awesome for me. Everything has gone to complete and total shit for me. ( excuse my language, but I'm at the end of my rope ) Even as I'm writing this tears are streaming down my face and I can't stop it.
I starting dating Alex and even though we hadn't been dating for long ( 4 months ) I knew I wanted to marry him. He was the one guy who not only got my sense of humor, but would build on my jokes, he saw how ambitious I am, made me feel like I was worthwhile ( helped me on my resume, told me how great I am at what I do, sincerely laughed at my jokes, congratulated me on even the little things I accomplished and many more ) I started working for Sephora, my dream job ( read my post in industry discussion ) two years ago moved into an amazing house with a roommate that turned into a best friend and last december bought a great car.
Well, in the past couple weeks all of that went to shit. Alex would sometimes go 3-4 days without calling me, I would have to call him. Whenever I was about to give up he would send an " I miss you " text, he went to my work christmas party, but then I haven't talked to him in about 9 days. He already had one ( reliable ) excuse where he was in a car accident and didn't have my # when he was in the hospital. It really was a nasty accident too, but I feel like his excuses have run out. I know bad luck happens to people ( I have it! ) but he can't come up with another excuse considering how many he's come up with so far ( at least 3 ) In the same week I found out that my dream job at Sephora had come to an end ( again in the industry discussion, long story ) Two people within less than 12 hours hit my car! Once I was crossing a bridge on my way home from a closing shift when a woman ran a red light to jump in front of me, but she also tried to pull into my lane while she was too busy talking on her phone to realize I was there, she ran me into the side of the bridge ( I was so angry I threw my frozen bottle of Mt Dew at her windshield and drove off at the next red light since she had no intention of collecting information or even saying she was sorry ) the next morning an old man ran into the back of my car while sitting at a wield sign. A cop was sitting right there and saw how hard he hit me from a dead stop. He hit me so hard that the cappucino that I just bought flew into my middle console and it was literally 0 degrees that morning. It took me 5 seconds to check the back of my car and get back into my drivers seat before the cop came over to check on me, I told him I was ok, but in the middle of my sentence slipped about how it took literally 5 seconds for my cap. to freeze against my console. The old man jumped out and said he was sorry and that his foot slipped off the brake ( impossible consdiring how hard he hit me from a dead stop since my head hit the back of my seat so hard I almost choked on my own tongue ) but I was so concerned with getting to work on time that I let him go and went on my way to work. And at the same time my roommate was bitching at me about taking out the garbage on a day that I was almost running late for work, also putting away clean dishes from the dishwasher. There are 3 of us living in my house and 1 of us hasn't done a single thing in our house yet, but my roommate felt the need to bitch at me instead of the one person who hasn't done ANYTHING here in the 5-6 months that she's been living here. There's also more going on here with the cats, etc.
and on top of all of that all of my birthday plans have fell through tonight.
So basically I've had my professional life, personal life and home life go down the shitter in the past two weeks. I can't get away from ANYTHING right now, no matter where I go. I'm even getting hurt physically because of some of the bullshit going on with everything. I honestly cannot take another day of this, I honestly wish I could just be taken out on my next car ride and with peoples history of hitting my car it doesn't seem to be taking long.
I've never taken drugs before, but right now I can see how some people would turn to them. Give me anything, just knock me out and walk me through the door cuz I have no desire to see though my own eyes anymore.