Hey, I just can't think like I used too. I can't do nothing right at home I just can't get out and find something I need but I do get help and my head just can't grasp what's happening to me for 4 years. I just don't like what I have and I can't get things straight with my thoughts I have bad dreams and unusal dreams and I don't know what to really do about it I just can't speak up. Everything I go through my thoughts is not thoughts it's something I have to deal with the rest of my life and their is no love and it's hard for me to find love to have an relationship with someone. I can't take this depression I have but I do take something for it but to me it seems like nothing like theirs nothing in the world for me to do. I don't know what I'm going to do I've been having bad days this month and nothing seems to work. I just want someone to talk to me and help me understand why me.