metal_romantic
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This is hard to share but I wondered if anyone else had similar experiences. I finished school 6 years ago but my experiences with bullying still affect me now. I went to 4 different schools and had bad experiences at each. Every time I changed schools I thought things would get better but would be bitterly disappointed. There was a lot of rejection, exclusion, etc. but also physical abuse, threats, and constant harassment. The physical stuff was awful and scary, but what was most damaging was the hurtful words. I tried ignoring them, and tried standing up for myself, but nothing worked. I know that bullies target people who are different to them, eg. different race, skin colour, differently abled, etc. (which is AWFUL). I was not "different" in any way that really stands out to me, but for some reason I was always a "target" for hatred wherever I went. It still affects me now, I have nightmares, and when I saw one of the worst bullies in the supermarket a while ago I and was literally shaking. No-one has been able to help me so far. I read stories of other girls who have been on the receiving end of bullying, but they always have a happy ending- eg. the teachers put an end to it, or they move schools and are accepted at their new school and thrive. This has not been the case for me. It's like a dark shadow that follows me everywhere. Has anyone had (or know of anyone who has had) a similar experience?