kuuipo1207
Well-known member
Alright, so I'm finally going to stop being a big chicken and just get this out in the open already. I've been struggling with my weight pretty much all my life from my mom telling me to always suck in my stomach and stand up straight, to her taking me to Jenny Craig when I was 10 (actually we were going for my dad and after they finished talking with him about it, she looked at me and asked the lady "Is there a program that you guys have that I can put my daughter on?"...I was 10. 10!!), to battling bulemia in high school/college, to gaining weight (a LOT of weight) after getting married, and I'm fed up with it. I've tried everything from the Atkins, to the South Beach, to diet pills like Hydroxycut and Trimspa, to Slim-fast shakes, to practical starvation by eating only one meal a day. Stupid? Yes, I know. Needless to say I'm fed up with myself, my weight, my eating habits, and my lazy ass.
Since this year has started I've gone on a diet and off a diet, which I need to realize that I am not "dieting". What I initially am doing is changing my lifestyle. I've been trying to choose healthier foods, eat smaller portions, and cook with less fats. After a couple of weeks or so, however, I'll have that one brownie, then want another one, and soon enough, I've failed myself, because I think I've failed because I slipped up. But I'm only human! Shit, I tell people this all the time when they make mistakes! Why the hell should I be any different?!?
I've been slacking on the exercise part, but I'm going to to start kicking myself in the @$$ and get myself to the gym. If I don't go to the gym, I'm popping in a damn DVD, cause God only knows how many f'in workout DVD's I have from Tae-bo to Power 90 to Pilates to Yoga.
I figure this is how I will keep myself accountable. I've always done this alone, for the most part, so if I failed, it was always only me that would be disappointed, and it would always only be me that would have to know that I "failed". I've been debating about posting a thread about this issue cause it's always been a personal issue with me, but I have come to see that 99% of you guys and gals here on specktra are a great group of supporters and motivators. I've always felt like I've needed to set up this great image of "I'm happy with who I am", "I don't have a problem" image...which for the most part, I am happy with who I am...as a person. My weight, however, is something that I always let get me down. Sure people have told me that I "carry" my weight well. Hell my dad thought I weighted 150 in high school, when in reality I weighed 200. My husband's cousin guessed my weight was 235 when I was really 267. But that's besides the point....
So here's my announcement to all you specktralites out there...and even to myself as a wake up call. I am not going on a diet! I am not working out "just" to lose weight. I am changing my lifestyle and my eating habits. I am going to work out cause I want to have a healthy body that will last me well into old age, and cause I will be happier as a person.I have had two members of my family who have had gastric-bypasses. I do not want to have to resort to that. I will do this the right way and I will succeed at it. If I slip up, I will realize that I am only human, and it was only that one instance...it is not something that my entire life should be affected by! And I am doing this for me, to make me feel better about myself, to make me feel better, period.
I just need some help every now and then with a couple of swift kicks in the ass. So when I become lax in posting or anything, can someone hold me accountable? Please? TIA.
BTW, I started this last week on 08/12/2007
Starting weight: 281
Current weight: 277
Goal weight: 160-165
Total Loss of ----120-125 lbs.
Now to make sure I actually keep up my end of this bargin and hit "submit new thread"......
Since this year has started I've gone on a diet and off a diet, which I need to realize that I am not "dieting". What I initially am doing is changing my lifestyle. I've been trying to choose healthier foods, eat smaller portions, and cook with less fats. After a couple of weeks or so, however, I'll have that one brownie, then want another one, and soon enough, I've failed myself, because I think I've failed because I slipped up. But I'm only human! Shit, I tell people this all the time when they make mistakes! Why the hell should I be any different?!?
I've been slacking on the exercise part, but I'm going to to start kicking myself in the @$$ and get myself to the gym. If I don't go to the gym, I'm popping in a damn DVD, cause God only knows how many f'in workout DVD's I have from Tae-bo to Power 90 to Pilates to Yoga.
I figure this is how I will keep myself accountable. I've always done this alone, for the most part, so if I failed, it was always only me that would be disappointed, and it would always only be me that would have to know that I "failed". I've been debating about posting a thread about this issue cause it's always been a personal issue with me, but I have come to see that 99% of you guys and gals here on specktra are a great group of supporters and motivators. I've always felt like I've needed to set up this great image of "I'm happy with who I am", "I don't have a problem" image...which for the most part, I am happy with who I am...as a person. My weight, however, is something that I always let get me down. Sure people have told me that I "carry" my weight well. Hell my dad thought I weighted 150 in high school, when in reality I weighed 200. My husband's cousin guessed my weight was 235 when I was really 267. But that's besides the point....
So here's my announcement to all you specktralites out there...and even to myself as a wake up call. I am not going on a diet! I am not working out "just" to lose weight. I am changing my lifestyle and my eating habits. I am going to work out cause I want to have a healthy body that will last me well into old age, and cause I will be happier as a person.I have had two members of my family who have had gastric-bypasses. I do not want to have to resort to that. I will do this the right way and I will succeed at it. If I slip up, I will realize that I am only human, and it was only that one instance...it is not something that my entire life should be affected by! And I am doing this for me, to make me feel better about myself, to make me feel better, period.
I just need some help every now and then with a couple of swift kicks in the ass. So when I become lax in posting or anything, can someone hold me accountable? Please? TIA.
BTW, I started this last week on 08/12/2007
Starting weight: 281
Current weight: 277
Goal weight: 160-165
Total Loss of ----120-125 lbs.
Now to make sure I actually keep up my end of this bargin and hit "submit new thread"......