anniemalibu7
Member
So Im really just writing this as sort of a journal entry.
Today I went shopping for all BLACK clothes for my new job at MAC. I start first with basic training next monday. Im both excited and nervous. I know that I shouldnt be nervous, it's just that Ive built it up so much in my mind that its become so huge to me. I have finally got the job that I have wanted for nearly two years, its something I wanted so bad that I cried when I got it. I have been working in retail for over 7 years, been doing make-up for 2 years, and have a degree from a top Fashion School. I smoked the interview process. I am more than qualified. Yet why must I be so NERVOUS. I walked by the MAC store today, peered inside. I thought to myself, I cant believe I am going to be one of them. They have always seemed so cool. So pretty. So hip. I have always wanted to be that. I try to narrow down what it is that im so nervous about. Is it whether I can do the job? Am I cool enough, will I fit in? Will I even like it? I suppose Im afraid that I will get in there and this dream that I have created surrounding MAC will be crushed, that I will realize it is just retail. It has been my goal off in the distance for years. And here I am, Ive gotten it. Now I find myself doubting, full of the what ifs. I hate this feeling. Im not used to change, Im not used to trying to impress anybody. Im just me. I know deep down that everything will be fine. But,
Somebody please tell me to stop worrying. Please tell me that I will love it. Please help me from being a nervous wreck!
Today I went shopping for all BLACK clothes for my new job at MAC. I start first with basic training next monday. Im both excited and nervous. I know that I shouldnt be nervous, it's just that Ive built it up so much in my mind that its become so huge to me. I have finally got the job that I have wanted for nearly two years, its something I wanted so bad that I cried when I got it. I have been working in retail for over 7 years, been doing make-up for 2 years, and have a degree from a top Fashion School. I smoked the interview process. I am more than qualified. Yet why must I be so NERVOUS. I walked by the MAC store today, peered inside. I thought to myself, I cant believe I am going to be one of them. They have always seemed so cool. So pretty. So hip. I have always wanted to be that. I try to narrow down what it is that im so nervous about. Is it whether I can do the job? Am I cool enough, will I fit in? Will I even like it? I suppose Im afraid that I will get in there and this dream that I have created surrounding MAC will be crushed, that I will realize it is just retail. It has been my goal off in the distance for years. And here I am, Ive gotten it. Now I find myself doubting, full of the what ifs. I hate this feeling. Im not used to change, Im not used to trying to impress anybody. Im just me. I know deep down that everything will be fine. But,
Somebody please tell me to stop worrying. Please tell me that I will love it. Please help me from being a nervous wreck!