X4biddenxLustX
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This is going to be a TMI post, I will warn you ladies lol. Feel free to please move this post to whatever section you feel it's appropriate.
So as far back as I can remember I've ALWAYS had a pretty high sex drive (I'm almost 19 now). I thought about sex a lot. Wanted it a lot. It was manageable for me at that point even though it sort of annoyed the guy I was having sex with. He would complain when I would pretty much ask him over and over again for more sex cause I wanted more of it. He would often compare our sex drives and his would be more lower or average and mines would be either high or extremely high at different times. I learned to just stop asking for second rounds cause he didn't feel like it and settled for just one round of great sex. I started masturbating more and things were fine. I was content.
I eventually went on birth control (Nuvaring) and noticed that it lowered my sex drive to a level where I wasn't thinking about sex a whole lot or wanting it all as much as I use to. Which for me was a great thing. I cannot tell you how many times if someone could magically pop into my head and see what I was thinking, it would be SEX. Or something sex related. It was a great feeling and I felt relieved in a way to not be about sex sex sex so much.
I ended up getting off of the nuvaring and my sex drive stayed on a "normal" level for months and months but then BAM! It went into complete OVERDRIVE. It was 10x worse than it had ever been. I literally constantly thought about sex. Fantasized about having it. I wanted it ALL THE TIME. And the more I had it the more I wanted it again. There was one week where I kid you not, I masturbated every single day. For at least an hour a day, at least once a day and usually more than once. Then on top of that I still continuously craved sex. It was awful! I felt like some sex maniac had suddenly taken over my mind and body.
Eventually it started to get back to normal like it was before. I started on nuvaring again about a little over a month ago and lately these past few weeks my sex drives going wayyyy up again. Which is so weird because the first time I was on nuvaring it decreased my sex drive by a lot. I'm not sure if the nuvaring has anything to do with the increase again.
But I really hate how I'm feeling. I keep wanting sex! I keep fantasize about having it with different guys, including guyfriends who I'd never think about having sex with. I'm not saying I'd definitely have sex with them but I just keep thinking about it in my head. And its making me feel really uncomfortable. Honestly at this point the thought of even not being able to have sex scares me to the point where I wanna freak out cause i want it soo badly. Plus the fact that my partner and I probably are not going to be speaking to each other anymore which means no more sex doesn't help at all either! Especially with the fact that I keep thinking about having sex with guyfriends and different guys. I just don't want to do anything stupid and ruin a friendship or have sex with just some guy cause I keep wanting it so bad. I've tried masturbating more and it doesn't help that much.
In a way too I feel ashamed for having all these fantasies and thoughts all the time. I know it's natural but it just makes me so uncomfortable.
I hate feeling this way soo much. I'm not sure what to do or what's wrong with me?! I just want a normal sex drive where I feel that sex isn't running my life or my mind cause I feel like it is right now. Has anyone ever felt this way before or anything similiar to it? And if so can you please give me any advice on how to help if possible fix this?!!
So as far back as I can remember I've ALWAYS had a pretty high sex drive (I'm almost 19 now). I thought about sex a lot. Wanted it a lot. It was manageable for me at that point even though it sort of annoyed the guy I was having sex with. He would complain when I would pretty much ask him over and over again for more sex cause I wanted more of it. He would often compare our sex drives and his would be more lower or average and mines would be either high or extremely high at different times. I learned to just stop asking for second rounds cause he didn't feel like it and settled for just one round of great sex. I started masturbating more and things were fine. I was content.
I eventually went on birth control (Nuvaring) and noticed that it lowered my sex drive to a level where I wasn't thinking about sex a whole lot or wanting it all as much as I use to. Which for me was a great thing. I cannot tell you how many times if someone could magically pop into my head and see what I was thinking, it would be SEX. Or something sex related. It was a great feeling and I felt relieved in a way to not be about sex sex sex so much.
I ended up getting off of the nuvaring and my sex drive stayed on a "normal" level for months and months but then BAM! It went into complete OVERDRIVE. It was 10x worse than it had ever been. I literally constantly thought about sex. Fantasized about having it. I wanted it ALL THE TIME. And the more I had it the more I wanted it again. There was one week where I kid you not, I masturbated every single day. For at least an hour a day, at least once a day and usually more than once. Then on top of that I still continuously craved sex. It was awful! I felt like some sex maniac had suddenly taken over my mind and body.
Eventually it started to get back to normal like it was before. I started on nuvaring again about a little over a month ago and lately these past few weeks my sex drives going wayyyy up again. Which is so weird because the first time I was on nuvaring it decreased my sex drive by a lot. I'm not sure if the nuvaring has anything to do with the increase again.
But I really hate how I'm feeling. I keep wanting sex! I keep fantasize about having it with different guys, including guyfriends who I'd never think about having sex with. I'm not saying I'd definitely have sex with them but I just keep thinking about it in my head. And its making me feel really uncomfortable. Honestly at this point the thought of even not being able to have sex scares me to the point where I wanna freak out cause i want it soo badly. Plus the fact that my partner and I probably are not going to be speaking to each other anymore which means no more sex doesn't help at all either! Especially with the fact that I keep thinking about having sex with guyfriends and different guys. I just don't want to do anything stupid and ruin a friendship or have sex with just some guy cause I keep wanting it so bad. I've tried masturbating more and it doesn't help that much.
In a way too I feel ashamed for having all these fantasies and thoughts all the time. I know it's natural but it just makes me so uncomfortable.
I hate feeling this way soo much. I'm not sure what to do or what's wrong with me?! I just want a normal sex drive where I feel that sex isn't running my life or my mind cause I feel like it is right now. Has anyone ever felt this way before or anything similiar to it? And if so can you please give me any advice on how to help if possible fix this?!!