Breakups suck

[honeyd]

This is just random thoughts I need to share with someone.

My bf and I of almost 5 years just broke up this past weekend. He screwed up big time, is in tons of debt and hurt everyone who cares about him, including his family. I'm sad but even more than that I'm full of rage. I miss him but am so angry at him for being so selfish and not respecting me. Not to mention he has told me he thinks I need to lose weight..which when we first started dating he thought I was too skinny. I didn't even gain 10 pounds since then! Just actually got some curves. Grr it pisses me off. Partly because I'm so stupid to put up with his crap. He did treat me bad, all my friends were always telling me that. I just made up excuses for his behavior constantly..but now I see he was an ass. Can I say "ass" on here? Its weird without him though. I think I'm just scared about moving on and everything being different. Just needed to vent because I feel like I'm about to burst and just wanna call him up and yell at him! But I'm trying to be better than that, so I'll gripe online haha. Thanks lovlies.

 

[Janice]

Well I'm really glad that instead of calling him you vented here. It's a difficult time for you, but you sound like you have your reasons laid out on why you needed to make the break. Be committed to those reasons, stay focused on your personal goals. I wish I could be more of a help, I'm sure this is hard on you.

 

[Shimmer]

I'm glad you have a place to vent.

Try not to bash him too much to friends and family, and just surround yourself with supportive positive people right now. Take care of YOU.

 

[Hawkeye]

Totally second what Janice and shimmer said.

I mean I gotta say I'm proud of you for realizing this and you know the more you say bad about him the more it makes you look bad (I know I know I hate it too) It's ok to vent (Hell i would MUCH rather you vent here) but just surround yourself with good people, look a head hold your head up high and say watch out world, I'm young, I'm beautiful, I'm single, I'm smart and there aint a g*d-d*mn thing you can do about it

 

[NutMeg]

I second what everyone is saying about surrounding yourself with positive people. And hey if you don't have alot of supportive friends in your life right now, you are in the right place! Let us know if you need cheering up.

 

[honeyd]

Thank you everyone! Yeah I've been racking up a huge cellphone bill and talking to all my friends a lot more. And I have a "breakup buddy" who I call when I need to cry or get angry instead of taking it out on everyone and seeming like a bitter cow, haha. She's been great and therefor makes me happy...meaning i dont talk about him much anymore and its only been two weekish.