ilovexnerdsx
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sorry in advance for the SUPER long post
last school year, my friend elissa was my best friend in the entire world.
we came up with like 50 new inside jokes per day...or, at least, so many we couldnt remember them all by the end of the day.
we would go and see each other between every class and talk and everything. during lunch we would just walk laps around the school talking about everything.
i had never had a friend as close as she was to me. people at my school LITERALLY started to think that we were dating, because we spent sooooo much time together. i don't think i could be as open with anyone else as i was with her...she knew everything. we'd tell each other every detail. we suffered through depression together...we survived through my crazyhard school together. we were what got each other through the day.
one of those friendships that make you warm inside, and let you know you're loved....yeah it was one of those.
so here's what happened. over the summer she was going to be gone across the country staying with her sister....so her, and a mutual friend we know (named jessica), were going to spend the night at my house so that we could all hang out one last time before elissa went away.
well around midnight, jessica found out she couldn't spend the night with me afterall, and her dad was coming to pick her up. so we were scrambling to get her things together and to say goodbye to her.....and at the last minute elissa keeps saying "i need to go to jessica's house for the night" and she wouldn't tell me why...ergh long story, lots of confusion, but basically she just ditched me so that she could spend the night with jessica instead of me, when elissa and i had planned for WEEKS that elissa was going to stay with me whereas the idea of jessica even coming over at all didn't happen til that day.
so obviously i was upset and tried to talk to them about it....and somehow they're both mad at me?!?! i've never understood it.
oh side note: jessica and i were VERY close too, but elissa and i saw each other a lot more because jessica went to a different school.
well now jessica is coming to our school. i see jessica and elissa hanging out everyday whereas i'm sitting alone. i've tried to talk to them both and it doesn't really seem like either of them are interested in becoming friends with me again.
i have computer with elissa now, and i asked her if i could sit beside her. she said sure. so we talked some but it was sort of akward...i was probably blushing. i think it was just her putting on a facade.
they're both so distant from me.....and i miss them both so bad. they've taken all our mutual friends with them. my school is very small (about 500 students over 4 grades) and so it wasn't hard for them to just take EVERYONE i know and turn them against me...without even realizing it.
i have no one and i miss them so bad
how do you show them you really want to be so close to them again? or, how would you cope? i can make new friends yes, but its hard for me to REALLY have that connection with people like i had with them. i hate the thought of spending the year alone...but that's exactly what i've been doing. yes i've been talking to people, but i dont have any friends that i can spill my guts too. i dont have anyone close.
it hurts so bad to see them grouped together and having fun with each other. i dont know what to do
wowowowo this is a LONG post
last school year, my friend elissa was my best friend in the entire world.
we came up with like 50 new inside jokes per day...or, at least, so many we couldnt remember them all by the end of the day.
we would go and see each other between every class and talk and everything. during lunch we would just walk laps around the school talking about everything.
i had never had a friend as close as she was to me. people at my school LITERALLY started to think that we were dating, because we spent sooooo much time together. i don't think i could be as open with anyone else as i was with her...she knew everything. we'd tell each other every detail. we suffered through depression together...we survived through my crazyhard school together. we were what got each other through the day.
one of those friendships that make you warm inside, and let you know you're loved....yeah it was one of those.
so here's what happened. over the summer she was going to be gone across the country staying with her sister....so her, and a mutual friend we know (named jessica), were going to spend the night at my house so that we could all hang out one last time before elissa went away.
well around midnight, jessica found out she couldn't spend the night with me afterall, and her dad was coming to pick her up. so we were scrambling to get her things together and to say goodbye to her.....and at the last minute elissa keeps saying "i need to go to jessica's house for the night" and she wouldn't tell me why...ergh long story, lots of confusion, but basically she just ditched me so that she could spend the night with jessica instead of me, when elissa and i had planned for WEEKS that elissa was going to stay with me whereas the idea of jessica even coming over at all didn't happen til that day.
so obviously i was upset and tried to talk to them about it....and somehow they're both mad at me?!?! i've never understood it.
oh side note: jessica and i were VERY close too, but elissa and i saw each other a lot more because jessica went to a different school.
well now jessica is coming to our school. i see jessica and elissa hanging out everyday whereas i'm sitting alone. i've tried to talk to them both and it doesn't really seem like either of them are interested in becoming friends with me again.
i have computer with elissa now, and i asked her if i could sit beside her. she said sure. so we talked some but it was sort of akward...i was probably blushing. i think it was just her putting on a facade.
they're both so distant from me.....and i miss them both so bad. they've taken all our mutual friends with them. my school is very small (about 500 students over 4 grades) and so it wasn't hard for them to just take EVERYONE i know and turn them against me...without even realizing it.
i have no one and i miss them so bad
it hurts so bad to see them grouped together and having fun with each other. i dont know what to do
wowowowo this is a LONG post
