eccentric
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So, doesn't it just suck hardcore balls when you like someone who doesn't like you back? Sorry in advance for the length. Not sure how "high school" this is going to sound (keep in mind we're both 19), but here's my shitty situation:
Months ago, I would go into the video game store in the mall all the time because there was this really cute boy who worked there. Call me a stalker, but he's just freaking adorable and I never really talked to him or anything, just browsed games. Then by total chance a few weeks ago, I found his Myspace. I had been secretly searching for a while; I did a browse search that day, and on the first page happened to be one of his coworkers so I looked at his profile wondering if this boy would be in his friends. And there he was.
! I was soo stoked, you don't even know. I was giddy all day and I finally got the courage to message him. It was very general, just a hello, how's it going type thing, of course telling him I recognized him from the game store and that I "randomly" found him on one of my friend's profiles, looool. He messaged me back and he was really nice, saying he thought I looked very familiar.
Fast forward to a couple days after the first message, I go into the store and say hi for the first time. It went really well, and talking to him just felt natural which isn't the norm for me. Our relationship blossomed from there, through messages on Myspace and in-store visits. He mentioned that we should hang out sometime, so we did. In the past week I've been hanging out with him like every other day for hours into the night. He tells me I'm amazing, and that I look nice every day, he likes the way I dress, I'm really cool, etc. But then, he just keeps referring to me as his friend in very obvious ways. For instance, he says he sometimes ends up treating his girlfriends like shit and that he can be a mean guy in relationships, but then he says "You'll never see that side of me, I don't treat my friends that way." Oh man, I was crushed. He only wants to be friends with me and he made that really apparent.
Now I'm really confused about what I should do next. Do I just keep being good friends and hanging out with him constantly, without telling him that I like him? Is he just going to end up breaking my heart? I know if and when he gets a girlfriend I will be devastated. I won't know how to handle it, but I want to stay friends with him. Not only because he's a cool person, but also, I barely have any other friends to do things with. I'm afraid if I do tell him, he'll be all creeped out and not want to be friends anymore or something, which would be awful. Then again, I just want to be straight up and honest with him, because that's usually how I roll. But I'm scared and confused.
Feel free to give advice, share your own stories, or ignore. :]
Months ago, I would go into the video game store in the mall all the time because there was this really cute boy who worked there. Call me a stalker, but he's just freaking adorable and I never really talked to him or anything, just browsed games. Then by total chance a few weeks ago, I found his Myspace. I had been secretly searching for a while; I did a browse search that day, and on the first page happened to be one of his coworkers so I looked at his profile wondering if this boy would be in his friends. And there he was.
Fast forward to a couple days after the first message, I go into the store and say hi for the first time. It went really well, and talking to him just felt natural which isn't the norm for me. Our relationship blossomed from there, through messages on Myspace and in-store visits. He mentioned that we should hang out sometime, so we did. In the past week I've been hanging out with him like every other day for hours into the night. He tells me I'm amazing, and that I look nice every day, he likes the way I dress, I'm really cool, etc. But then, he just keeps referring to me as his friend in very obvious ways. For instance, he says he sometimes ends up treating his girlfriends like shit and that he can be a mean guy in relationships, but then he says "You'll never see that side of me, I don't treat my friends that way." Oh man, I was crushed. He only wants to be friends with me and he made that really apparent.
Now I'm really confused about what I should do next. Do I just keep being good friends and hanging out with him constantly, without telling him that I like him? Is he just going to end up breaking my heart? I know if and when he gets a girlfriend I will be devastated. I won't know how to handle it, but I want to stay friends with him. Not only because he's a cool person, but also, I barely have any other friends to do things with. I'm afraid if I do tell him, he'll be all creeped out and not want to be friends anymore or something, which would be awful. Then again, I just want to be straight up and honest with him, because that's usually how I roll. But I'm scared and confused.
Feel free to give advice, share your own stories, or ignore. :]
