esmeralda89
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I have to get this off my chest, theres this guy I will call him M who broke my heart. Its the first time this has ever happened to me so i dont know how to deal with the situation.
The story is so messy and complicated, But tis is how it started:
My boyfrend of 5 years who i will call Rico is what people would call the perfect boyfriend, however under all that perfection lots of flaws were hidden. To begein this was a long distance relationship that was pretty strong exept for the fact that rico was overconfident, you see he is very attractive and sometimes uses that as a weapon. One day he came to visit me and everytime he came to visit me i would run into his arms and kiss and hug him, but insteasd of doing it back he pushed me away and was so rude, the only time he changed his behavior was at night when he wanted sex.
A couple of days later he called me and we talked for a while and out of the blue he said "Your worthless, im the only person who could ever stay with you" OUCH! His words killed me I cried for sometime and was depressed.
So for a few days i was hidden in my room of the apartment i shared with two roomates who i was barely geting to know, and i heard someone knoking on the door and answered it in my pj's and messy hair. It was my roomate Ani's good friend M. I didint see him that well because i was not wearing contacts so i just went back in my room. As the days passed i began to feel more comfortable with the people around me and so i started coming out of my room more often.
One day i walkedout of my room to get something in the kitchen and M tried to start a conversation but it didint work. So a couple of minutes later my roomate knoks on my door and says "M wants to speak to you" I was puzzeled and replied "about what?" and she says "idk" so we leave it at that and then she asks for my phone number so i give it to her because i never thought things could end up gong this far.
He immediatly came over and started talking to me, and I was so hurt from what rico said that the attention was flattering, so eventually one thing led to another and pretty soon i was in a relationship with M. It was very exiting because everything was so different I am very preppy and he was a hardcore rocker with tats etc.
At first i just wanted to have fun, but spending so much time with him developed into love that at one point he said he loved me back. After that it went down hill, he started showing his true colors and acting like a child, he couldent take no for an answer on anything and always wanted to win fights instead of talking it out and comming to an agreement.
So this kept happening but we were ok, then one day he got more agressive and called me "bitch" and slammed the door in my face. I told him i was upset and we should spend some time appart but not break up, but what he did was he mooved on behind my back and started talking to this girl. Iasked him to stop countless times and he didint. He hid his phone from me so last night i wrestled him for it and he didint want to show me because he knew it was gonna hurt me and it did. They were texting about how having sex woulf feel and how his kisses were so good. I felt like my heart was being shattered and i cried all night, i talked to my roomate and she turned her back on me because she protects him like a lioness. She knew what was going on, and im just so hurt, my heart hurts, my body aches, i dont know what to do, and im bothered by the fact that he comes looking for me wanting to have sex and kiss me after all of this is going on. It kills me, they have plans on fri to do what their text say.
I want to move on, I cant be treated like this but its so hard hes like a drug, all i want to do is call him but he made it clear that he wants to move on and be "friends" with me. And even so i still wnat to call him
Please give me advice, if anny ones been through this please tell me how you delt with it, I know getting back with sould not happen but sometimes my emotions are too strong what can i do? i dont want to be this person
The story is so messy and complicated, But tis is how it started:
My boyfrend of 5 years who i will call Rico is what people would call the perfect boyfriend, however under all that perfection lots of flaws were hidden. To begein this was a long distance relationship that was pretty strong exept for the fact that rico was overconfident, you see he is very attractive and sometimes uses that as a weapon. One day he came to visit me and everytime he came to visit me i would run into his arms and kiss and hug him, but insteasd of doing it back he pushed me away and was so rude, the only time he changed his behavior was at night when he wanted sex.
A couple of days later he called me and we talked for a while and out of the blue he said "Your worthless, im the only person who could ever stay with you" OUCH! His words killed me I cried for sometime and was depressed.
So for a few days i was hidden in my room of the apartment i shared with two roomates who i was barely geting to know, and i heard someone knoking on the door and answered it in my pj's and messy hair. It was my roomate Ani's good friend M. I didint see him that well because i was not wearing contacts so i just went back in my room. As the days passed i began to feel more comfortable with the people around me and so i started coming out of my room more often.
One day i walkedout of my room to get something in the kitchen and M tried to start a conversation but it didint work. So a couple of minutes later my roomate knoks on my door and says "M wants to speak to you" I was puzzeled and replied "about what?" and she says "idk" so we leave it at that and then she asks for my phone number so i give it to her because i never thought things could end up gong this far.
He immediatly came over and started talking to me, and I was so hurt from what rico said that the attention was flattering, so eventually one thing led to another and pretty soon i was in a relationship with M. It was very exiting because everything was so different I am very preppy and he was a hardcore rocker with tats etc.
At first i just wanted to have fun, but spending so much time with him developed into love that at one point he said he loved me back. After that it went down hill, he started showing his true colors and acting like a child, he couldent take no for an answer on anything and always wanted to win fights instead of talking it out and comming to an agreement.
So this kept happening but we were ok, then one day he got more agressive and called me "bitch" and slammed the door in my face. I told him i was upset and we should spend some time appart but not break up, but what he did was he mooved on behind my back and started talking to this girl. Iasked him to stop countless times and he didint. He hid his phone from me so last night i wrestled him for it and he didint want to show me because he knew it was gonna hurt me and it did. They were texting about how having sex woulf feel and how his kisses were so good. I felt like my heart was being shattered and i cried all night, i talked to my roomate and she turned her back on me because she protects him like a lioness. She knew what was going on, and im just so hurt, my heart hurts, my body aches, i dont know what to do, and im bothered by the fact that he comes looking for me wanting to have sex and kiss me after all of this is going on. It kills me, they have plans on fri to do what their text say.
I want to move on, I cant be treated like this but its so hard hes like a drug, all i want to do is call him but he made it clear that he wants to move on and be "friends" with me. And even so i still wnat to call him
Please give me advice, if anny ones been through this please tell me how you delt with it, I know getting back with sould not happen but sometimes my emotions are too strong what can i do? i dont want to be this person