My Boyfriend, best friend, and future husband passed away

[shadowaddict]

Oh Sweetie I just saw this and my heart is breaking for you. I am so very sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through. Please don't be down on yourself with blame or what if's. I know you feel like you have a giant hole in your chest but hopefully you can try to fill it with the loving memories you two shared together.

As hard as it will be please try to stay possitive about your own life and for your own health. It is easy when these things happen to fall in the black hole of depression that is mighty hard to climb out of. If you feel you are heading in that direction please reach out to someone. Perhaps your family or his will be supportive and comforting to you. If nothing else call a hotline, there are people to listen even if you just need for someone to hear you vent or cry. My heart goes out to you and you are in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[LMD84]

Thinking about the wonderful time we had together makes me happy and sad. I've returned to our home and it is painful that he won't be coming home anymore. I feel so empty and sad. His room is still here, but no one is there

oh sweetie he is there in spirit and he will always be with you. i can't imagine how terrible it is knowing that he will never walk through your home again - but things will get easier as the days go by. we're all here for you remember so please let us know if you need to talk.

 

[Shypo]

Oh, Babylard, I am so sorry! Of course you are devastated and unbelievably sad......my heart goes out to you. Try to get through each day as best you can, and as everyone has said, it will begin to get better. I love what laylalovesmac said.......you probably think it's impossible to smile right now, but eventually you will. You have him always in your heart.....

 

[Babylard]

Thank you everyone. It is encouraging when people reach out to me. I am trying very hard to live in a way that honors him.I keep him in my heart and will always love him like I always have. His absence is so painful. The family drama and problems makes it so much worse. There are so many things going on that would make my bf so sad if he knew

 

[LMD84]

Thank you everyone. It is encouraging when people reach out to me. I am trying very hard to live in a way that honors him.I keep him in my heart and will always love him like I always have. His absence is so painful. The family drama and problems makes it so much worse. There are so many things going on that would make my bf so sad if he knew

oh dear. i suppose no family is without its issues and when emotions are all over the place things are made worse. i am sorry that this is making things harder for you.

 

[nunu]

I'm so sorry for your loss, i can't begin to imagine how you must be feeling. Hugs

 

[briannafreeman]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain you are going through. Your story literally brought tears to my eyes. It's so sad. Don't blame yourself for the thing about the doctor. I'm sure your boyfriend has forgiven you since he has decided to gently watch over you. I'll be praying for you.