X4biddenxLustX
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I'm 18, and graduated from high school almost a year ago. The same goes for most of my friends also. About 4 years ago I moved to a different area in the city, and since I don't drive I haven't really been able to see them as much. Up until about 2 years ago, I would make an effort at least every other week to meet up with them and hang out for the whole day. Summer was a blast and I loved every minute of it.
But for some reason during senior year, the visits became less and less frequents. That and along with the phone calls and messages. I mean we'd still talk and hang out every now and then but it was no where as great as it use to be. I guess we all started to get a bit more serious about things cause we were gonna be adults essentially after this year of school. We had to worry about finding jobs, school, and balancing out relationships.
There have been times when one of my friends would kind of pop out of nowhere and try to hang out. Sometimes we would and everything would be all nice but then we'd kind of lose contact again after that. And it keeps happening with practically all of my friends. Just last night one of them told me to wake up extra early today cause she doesn't have work until 6 tonight and that we should hang out. Well I have a doctor's appointment at 2:15 and then work 3-10 right after that. I mean I could of woken up earlier and hung out with her until my appointment. But I'm just soooo worn out from work and life that there was no way I was up to doing anything. I feel bad as if I'm a bad friend or something. I really do want to hang out with her and everyone else but everytime we go and make plans our schedules are all different and don't mesh. And when I'm finally free, I'm way too exhausted to do anything but stay at home and sleep. Sometimes I make up excuses about why I can't go out especially if they just randomly call me up and want to hang out THAT day. I'm not a very spontaneous person and need to make plans ahead of time. I feel as if I'm avoiding them or something. My intentions aren't bad it's just there is so much going on right now that I don't have the energy or time to go out and have fun with them. The bottom line is I feel like such a bad person and I don't really know what to do or say to them?
But for some reason during senior year, the visits became less and less frequents. That and along with the phone calls and messages. I mean we'd still talk and hang out every now and then but it was no where as great as it use to be. I guess we all started to get a bit more serious about things cause we were gonna be adults essentially after this year of school. We had to worry about finding jobs, school, and balancing out relationships.
There have been times when one of my friends would kind of pop out of nowhere and try to hang out. Sometimes we would and everything would be all nice but then we'd kind of lose contact again after that. And it keeps happening with practically all of my friends. Just last night one of them told me to wake up extra early today cause she doesn't have work until 6 tonight and that we should hang out. Well I have a doctor's appointment at 2:15 and then work 3-10 right after that. I mean I could of woken up earlier and hung out with her until my appointment. But I'm just soooo worn out from work and life that there was no way I was up to doing anything. I feel bad as if I'm a bad friend or something. I really do want to hang out with her and everyone else but everytime we go and make plans our schedules are all different and don't mesh. And when I'm finally free, I'm way too exhausted to do anything but stay at home and sleep. Sometimes I make up excuses about why I can't go out especially if they just randomly call me up and want to hang out THAT day. I'm not a very spontaneous person and need to make plans ahead of time. I feel as if I'm avoiding them or something. My intentions aren't bad it's just there is so much going on right now that I don't have the energy or time to go out and have fun with them. The bottom line is I feel like such a bad person and I don't really know what to do or say to them?