There are some things about leaving I regret..but not much. Mostly the discount and gratis....the initial comraderie with other MUA's...but outside of that, i left because of of the direction my life was taking, and, I'd simply out grown the company. I realized that the serious artists that were with the company were all there for the same reason that I was. Who doesn't want to be a Senior Artist? Who doesn't want to be a trainer? At the end of the day I realized that particular competition is not for me. Everything I had to go through to come to that realization was more than enough. I'm an artist who wants what I want on my own terms. I'd rather struggle to get what i really want, than half of what somebody else wants to give me.
i miss the satisfaction of achieving and surpassing my goals and motivating my team...I hope they miss that about me, too. But they might not. i'm sure they got someone who they could pay less but won't work half as hard. What I got by leaving was this: more time to focus on achieving my personal goals, time to be able to work to achieve them. Time to focus on my family, on my child. I figured, if I'm gonna work hard with absolutely no benefit (or benefits) I might as well have control of my life. So I stepped down to freelance. It's been almost a year.In this year I've been wooed to come back into management, and been let down and disappointed. And I'm glad because I've gotten a taste of what I really want, and as hard as it's gonna be for me to become an established freelance artist, it'll be a lot more worthwhile.
