Ok, some more info
He's not going as a soldier, thank god, but as I said, doing business. There's a lot of money involved, so I do understand he has other things on his mind. BUT...as I said, a sign of life, especially when we usually talk like three times a week for hours would be nice. He did not say he intended to just go into "I'm not there" mode last time we talked...this would be ok too, somehow, if I only KNEW. Plus, we are not engaged yet...we were trying to figure out what we want from each other. He obviously knows, I was figuring, that is. Living away 300 miles doesn't make it to easy to decide to turn my life upside down
I do like him very, very, very much, but it's the second time he has done something really crappy (well, maybe not, but it feels this way to me) to me involving this Iraq thing. Now I really wonder: if he's already acting this way, freshly in love (and as he says, madly...but I actually hate people who talk a lot and act different), how will he act in 10 years when we are used to being with each other
And last but not least, I'm not living in the Middle East myself, I am just staying 1,5 to 2 months for an internship, then I'll be heading back to Europe. Thanks for your advice, ladies