Depression............
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sharkbytes
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I'm so sorry you've had such an ordeal. It seems like you've got a whole lot of stress and bad things happening all at the same time. Have you considered talking to a therapist? Not a psychiatrist or anything, but someone who can help you sort through your feelings, and perhaps who can refer you to a doctor for the PPD. Even if nothing changes, it might help to get some things off your chest. At any rate, I'm sending my best wishes~
lafemmenoir
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TwiggyPop,
Sweetheart, you have loads on your plate. You covered the whole lot. Aside from telling you cliches of how it will get sorted, I truly feel the best thing I can say in all honesty is that you may want to see a therapist of some sort. It doesn't mean you are crazy, but albeit clergy, friend, or medical, you have got to have someone to talk to to help you get your internal feelings sorted. I am no doctor, don't know much about PPD, Thyroid, nor Graves so all I can do is encourage you to continue seeking treatment by a specialist to get your physical health situated. Don't slip on that either and share with each professional what is going on as some things may be reacting to the other. I wish I had a cure for depression, but it sucks. Life is so hard, and it really hurts to feel so low, but your bf is probably dealing with it his way, men aren't the best in communicating in ways other than the physical, good for you having your friends and family to turn to. This was a serious decision and it will have to run its course in terms of when the emotional pain will stop. Try not to beat yourself up and find something that gives you joy, a simple pleasure, as you will need to find a place to channel your insides. *hugs* Take good care!
Sweetheart, you have loads on your plate. You covered the whole lot. Aside from telling you cliches of how it will get sorted, I truly feel the best thing I can say in all honesty is that you may want to see a therapist of some sort. It doesn't mean you are crazy, but albeit clergy, friend, or medical, you have got to have someone to talk to to help you get your internal feelings sorted. I am no doctor, don't know much about PPD, Thyroid, nor Graves so all I can do is encourage you to continue seeking treatment by a specialist to get your physical health situated. Don't slip on that either and share with each professional what is going on as some things may be reacting to the other. I wish I had a cure for depression, but it sucks. Life is so hard, and it really hurts to feel so low, but your bf is probably dealing with it his way, men aren't the best in communicating in ways other than the physical, good for you having your friends and family to turn to. This was a serious decision and it will have to run its course in terms of when the emotional pain will stop. Try not to beat yourself up and find something that gives you joy, a simple pleasure, as you will need to find a place to channel your insides. *hugs* Take good care!
TwiggyPop
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Thank you both! I have seen a therapist before, but it was years ago. It's basically just getting that validation that everyone needs in life that I thought I could just get from my friends, but a lot of my friends are some pretty tough bitches and want me to just get over it. haha. They are supportive when it comes to my PPD, but when I'm whining about my bf they just don't want to hear it.
I probably should start seeing a therapist again, I just don't like going through the hassel. I want to start painting again too, but I've been so depressed that I don't feel like doing anything. I haven't even done my make up in a week! That's crazy!
I probably should start seeing a therapist again, I just don't like going through the hassel. I want to start painting again too, but I've been so depressed that I don't feel like doing anything. I haven't even done my make up in a week! That's crazy!
TwiggyPop
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Ok, so I called today and made an appt with a therapist. I am such a basket case that I even started crying on the phone while she was asking me questions. She even made me promise not to hurt myself anytime before my appt on wednesday. That's what really got me, it made me feel like people on the outside probably think I need to be institutionalized. I don't think I'm that bad, I just think I'm having a really hard time sorting my life and feelings out.
i'm just really stressed and I think anybody would have a hard time dealing with all of that, right?
i'm just really stressed and I think anybody would have a hard time dealing with all of that, right?
Malena
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Yes, most definitely - please don´t worry about that
I can totally understand that you started crying, you´re stressed, anxious, nervous & it´s really hard to keep these feelings "under control" all of the time.
It´s great that you made a doctor´s appointment to get some help. Like I posted on another thread, my ex BF suffers from severe depression & in the end I left him because he wasn´t willing/bable to do anything against it.
I wish he would have been as strong as you are & that he would at least have tried to get some help.
Crossing my fingers you´ll feel better asap
Originally Posted by TwiggyPop
i'm just really stressed and I think anybody would have a hard time dealing with all of that, right? |
Yes, most definitely - please don´t worry about that
I can totally understand that you started crying, you´re stressed, anxious, nervous & it´s really hard to keep these feelings "under control" all of the time.
It´s great that you made a doctor´s appointment to get some help. Like I posted on another thread, my ex BF suffers from severe depression & in the end I left him because he wasn´t willing/bable to do anything against it.
I wish he would have been as strong as you are & that he would at least have tried to get some help.
Crossing my fingers you´ll feel better asap
TwiggyPop
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Well I started crying because she asked "have you thought of hurting yourself?" I couldn't lie so I had to say yes. It was then that I realized that I really am at the end of my rope, things need to start working out for me or else I'm not gonna make it out of this one.
I believe that my bf broke up with me because of the fact that I've been depressed for the past couple months, he doesn't know the real me anymore. Hell, I don't even know the real me anymore. I miss being able to laugh, I miss being able to tell a joke that people would laugh at. I barely even talk anymore and when I do I sound like monotone Twiggy or something. It's ridiculous. I miss being fun. It's even hurt my job because I have to be social at work, the more outgoing you are the bigger the tip so now I'm broke too!
Some good news though, my kitten is ok! She must've just had a virus or something because now she's eating, walking, playing. I won't get her back until friday though because the lady wants to get her the first shot on thursday. I hate to wait, but I want by little Lucie Furrocious to be healthy!
Thank you girls! I think talking it out is making me feel a little better. Now I just need for these migraines to go away!
| Originally Posted by Malena
I can totally understand that you started crying, you´re stressed, anxious, nervous & it´s really hard to keep these feelings "under control" all of the time. |
Well I started crying because she asked "have you thought of hurting yourself?" I couldn't lie so I had to say yes. It was then that I realized that I really am at the end of my rope, things need to start working out for me or else I'm not gonna make it out of this one.
I believe that my bf broke up with me because of the fact that I've been depressed for the past couple months, he doesn't know the real me anymore. Hell, I don't even know the real me anymore. I miss being able to laugh, I miss being able to tell a joke that people would laugh at. I barely even talk anymore and when I do I sound like monotone Twiggy or something. It's ridiculous. I miss being fun. It's even hurt my job because I have to be social at work, the more outgoing you are the bigger the tip so now I'm broke too!
Some good news though, my kitten is ok! She must've just had a virus or something because now she's eating, walking, playing. I won't get her back until friday though because the lady wants to get her the first shot on thursday. I hate to wait, but I want by little Lucie Furrocious to be healthy!
Thank you girls! I think talking it out is making me feel a little better. Now I just need for these migraines to go away!
elegant-one
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First of all, I want to say that what you are going through are some very difficult & stressful situations. Having someone to show you empathy & love are very important as well as talking things through with someone that is mature & outside of your immediate situation.
Also, as hard as it may seem, you may need to consider that your boyfriend is not mature enough for a real relationship. He obviously is not responding the way a loving & considerate person should act under these circumstances.
My hopes are that you find help to sort this all out. When you are strengthened emotionally & physically, rethink previous patterns in your life, accept yourself, love yourself & be encouraged that you can have a better and more fulfilling life from here on out.
hugs
Also, as hard as it may seem, you may need to consider that your boyfriend is not mature enough for a real relationship. He obviously is not responding the way a loving & considerate person should act under these circumstances.
My hopes are that you find help to sort this all out. When you are strengthened emotionally & physically, rethink previous patterns in your life, accept yourself, love yourself & be encouraged that you can have a better and more fulfilling life from here on out.
hugs
Beauty Mark
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I'm very proud of you for getting the help you deserve.
You shouldn't worry too much about your kitten. Cats are weird, and I don't know, they do crazy stuff. My cats do all sorts of random stuff to injure themselves temporarily.
You shouldn't worry too much about your kitten. Cats are weird, and I don't know, they do crazy stuff. My cats do all sorts of random stuff to injure themselves temporarily.
PuterChick
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I am glad to hear you made an appt., I think it takes a stronger person to admit that they need the help from an outside source. It does not mean you are crazy! I often have turned to a therapist when I feel that my life is just too much to handle. Try and stay strong and I will be thinking of you.
| Originally Posted by TwiggyPop
Ok, so I called today and made an appt with a therapist. I am such a basket case that I even started crying on the phone while she was asking me questions. She even made me promise not to hurt myself anytime before my appt on wednesday. That's what really got me, it made me feel like people on the outside probably think I need to be institutionalized. I don't think I'm that bad, I just think I'm having a really hard time sorting my life and feelings out. i'm just really stressed and I think anybody would have a hard time dealing with all of that, right? |
I am glad to hear you made an appt., I think it takes a stronger person to admit that they need the help from an outside source. It does not mean you are crazy! I often have turned to a therapist when I feel that my life is just too much to handle. Try and stay strong and I will be thinking of you.
TwiggyPop
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I was even saying that to my roommate, he had the balls to say that I was being immature.....it's funny that the argument stemmed from his excessive playing of video games. I think I deserve better than that, it's just sad that it almost seemed like a switch was flipped with him. He was great one minute and a careless asshole the next. I really miss how he was.
Thank you all for the well wishes! I think as long as I can get my list of "things to worry about" down to 3 I'll be ok. It's just going to take a while to knock out the first 5, haha.
| Originally Posted by elegant-one
Also, as hard as it may seem, you may need to consider that your boyfriend is not mature enough for a real relationship. He obviously is not responding the way a loving & considerate person should act under these circumstances. |
I was even saying that to my roommate, he had the balls to say that I was being immature.....it's funny that the argument stemmed from his excessive playing of video games. I think I deserve better than that, it's just sad that it almost seemed like a switch was flipped with him. He was great one minute and a careless asshole the next. I really miss how he was.
Thank you all for the well wishes! I think as long as I can get my list of "things to worry about" down to 3 I'll be ok. It's just going to take a while to knock out the first 5, haha.
Malena
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Oh, good news for you
I´m really happy to hear that!
| Originally Posted by TwiggyPop
Some good news though, my kitten is ok! She must've just had a virus or something because now she's eating, walking, playing. I won't get her back until friday though because the lady wants to get her the first shot on thursday. I hate to wait, but I want by little Lucie Furrocious to be healthy!
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Oh, good news for you
I´m really happy to hear that!
