sweatpea559
Well-known member
I feel like a pathetic little bitch for even complaining but I have to get this off my chest...
I just got out of school a little more than 2 weeks ago. I moved home for good because I couldn't afford to go there anymore. Since I moved home, I also had to quit my job and I'm having such a hard time finding a new one! I applied at two vets to be an animal caretaker, one said they were hiring and I knew that one of them wasn't. Neither called, so I called back the one that claimed to be hiring and the receptionist said they weren't. This made me kind of sad because I need this experience to apply for vet school... Since that fell through I decided to apply at Victoria's Secret (even though I didn't want the job) since they were definitely hiring. I talked to the hiring manager and she took down my number. She told me she'd be doing interviews next week. Next week came and went and no call. So I applied at Target and CVS. None of the CVSs were hiring but one of the Targets was so I was hopeful. No calls. I also called about a dozen other vets offices and retail stores but none of them were hiring. I just don't know what to do anymore. No one is hiring and the places that are obviously don't want me to work there. I have no money and I'm miserable!
I don't have a job and I don't go to school. What the hell am I supposed to do all day. My friends aren't done with school yet and all have jobs, so its not like they're available to do anything. I don't even want to get up in the morning because it seems so pointless! I'm not benefiting myself or anyone else by being up...
I gained 20 pounds while I was at school, and I'm only gaining more and more weight since I've been home. I keep telling myself I'm gonna loose it but it's hard to loose weight when you just sit around the house all day. I try getting ont he treadmil, and I do but it's nothing compared to the workout I got on a daily basis just going through my daily routine when I was at school. If I was gaining weight then who knows how much I'll gain now.
I'm also breaking out like crazy and I don't know why. Not just my face but my body too. I don't want to go anywhere in a bathing suit or do anything with my friends when they ask me to. I really wanted to go to Vegas next weekend and stay at my friends condo but I don't have gas money or money to pitch in for food, and I don't want to be seen all fat and covered in acne.
I basically feel fat and hideous and worthless right now and theres not a whole lot I can do about it. I keep telling myself I'm going to work out every single day until I have some sort of a life again but like I said, even if I work out for and hour or two it hardly makes up for my sedentary lifestyle. I've changed the way I eat but that doesn't help either.
I'm so sick of living this way and its only been a couple weeks. My summer classes don't start until June 22 and I doubt I'll have a job by then... And the FEES! How am I going to pay them? Looking doesn't even seem worth it anymore. The job section of the paper has only 10 or 20 jobs listed and they're all for truck drivers and people with degrees.
At least my stepdad got a job after 2 years of unemployment. I was the only person in my house with a job for years and now I don't have one which feels so weird. Ugh I hate not having any money, and I can't rely on my parents for much because they're still in so much debt from the past few years. They've already been complaining about how much food I eat and how the electric bill has gone up $10 since I've been back. I don't know what to tell them. I'm unemployed and I don't get sent $2000 every month for sitting on my ass like my stepdad did for years.
Life is sooo unfair. I know I could have it a lot worse, at least we still have our apartment (barely!)... Right now it just feels like a mess! Not to mention my OCD and crappy health insurance but that's a whole different story...
I just got out of school a little more than 2 weeks ago. I moved home for good because I couldn't afford to go there anymore. Since I moved home, I also had to quit my job and I'm having such a hard time finding a new one! I applied at two vets to be an animal caretaker, one said they were hiring and I knew that one of them wasn't. Neither called, so I called back the one that claimed to be hiring and the receptionist said they weren't. This made me kind of sad because I need this experience to apply for vet school... Since that fell through I decided to apply at Victoria's Secret (even though I didn't want the job) since they were definitely hiring. I talked to the hiring manager and she took down my number. She told me she'd be doing interviews next week. Next week came and went and no call. So I applied at Target and CVS. None of the CVSs were hiring but one of the Targets was so I was hopeful. No calls. I also called about a dozen other vets offices and retail stores but none of them were hiring. I just don't know what to do anymore. No one is hiring and the places that are obviously don't want me to work there. I have no money and I'm miserable!
I don't have a job and I don't go to school. What the hell am I supposed to do all day. My friends aren't done with school yet and all have jobs, so its not like they're available to do anything. I don't even want to get up in the morning because it seems so pointless! I'm not benefiting myself or anyone else by being up...
I gained 20 pounds while I was at school, and I'm only gaining more and more weight since I've been home. I keep telling myself I'm gonna loose it but it's hard to loose weight when you just sit around the house all day. I try getting ont he treadmil, and I do but it's nothing compared to the workout I got on a daily basis just going through my daily routine when I was at school. If I was gaining weight then who knows how much I'll gain now.
I'm also breaking out like crazy and I don't know why. Not just my face but my body too. I don't want to go anywhere in a bathing suit or do anything with my friends when they ask me to. I really wanted to go to Vegas next weekend and stay at my friends condo but I don't have gas money or money to pitch in for food, and I don't want to be seen all fat and covered in acne.
I basically feel fat and hideous and worthless right now and theres not a whole lot I can do about it. I keep telling myself I'm going to work out every single day until I have some sort of a life again but like I said, even if I work out for and hour or two it hardly makes up for my sedentary lifestyle. I've changed the way I eat but that doesn't help either.
I'm so sick of living this way and its only been a couple weeks. My summer classes don't start until June 22 and I doubt I'll have a job by then... And the FEES! How am I going to pay them? Looking doesn't even seem worth it anymore. The job section of the paper has only 10 or 20 jobs listed and they're all for truck drivers and people with degrees.
At least my stepdad got a job after 2 years of unemployment. I was the only person in my house with a job for years and now I don't have one which feels so weird. Ugh I hate not having any money, and I can't rely on my parents for much because they're still in so much debt from the past few years. They've already been complaining about how much food I eat and how the electric bill has gone up $10 since I've been back. I don't know what to tell them. I'm unemployed and I don't get sent $2000 every month for sitting on my ass like my stepdad did for years.
Life is sooo unfair. I know I could have it a lot worse, at least we still have our apartment (barely!)... Right now it just feels like a mess! Not to mention my OCD and crappy health insurance but that's a whole different story...