Health issues.


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Basically, I just need to rant.

I'm 23. It's 2014 and in December 2012 I had to drop out of college due to health issues.

I'm still going through a lot of testing but my Dr is 99% positive I have Myalgic Encephalomyelitis (M.E. for short, CFS in other countries even though they're different.) The way to diagnose is by process of elimination - so a diagnosis of M.E. is given when they've ruled out every single other thing it could possibly be.

There is absolutely no cure. There is no treatment. The only thing Dr's can do is make patients with M.E. as "comfortable" as possible, almost as if we're dying. Only the pain meds don't work, nothing works.

Exercise, many people tell us "oh go for a walk, it'll help" -- anyone who knows anything about M.E. knows that in actuality, exercise will make us WORSE. That's right. Go for a walk around the block? I'll be unable to walk or move for 2-3 days afterwards. It isn't a good "burn" like going to the gym and having a good work out, it's excruciating pain that doesn't leave for days.

April 9th, 2014 I bought my first walking stick at 23yrs old.

Instead of being near the end of my 2nd year of my Law Degree I'm buying walking sticks.

I'm tired, I'm angry, I'm upset and nothing can seem to give me any comfort in what I'm going through, even people who understand it.

With M.E., you can go into "Remission" like you can with cancer. Only, you're never classed as "cured" after a certain amount of time. You can "Relapse" just like you can with cancer.

August 2013 I had a liver biopsy because they suspected I had Auto-Immune Hepatitis, which is when your body attacks your liver because it thinks your liver is the enemy. At this point, I was so desperate for an answer I was hoping I DID have AIH, because at least with that there is treatment. With that, I could be healthy again and feeling better in no time.

I don't even know what else to type right now. My brain is foggy, I'm tired, I hurt.. but I'm fed up.

A walking stick at 23.. I just can't get over it.


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BeddaZzle that fken walking stick. All you have is now. No matter how fucked up "now" is. Pmd u.