DropDeadDarling
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If it's not, sorry. :[ Feel free to move it!!
So, from about October of '06 to May of '07, I'd been going through a whole bunch of stuff. Family, school, friends, etc. were starting to pile up & it was really getting to me. Everytime I tried to turn to my best friend of five years, she would just get irritated with me. Even when we were just hanging out, she would make fun of me & just bring me further down. Eventually, it got to the point where she was purposely making me hang out with my ex-boyfriend. She knew everything he put me through & she knew that my boyfriend wouldn't like it at all. [Not because he didn't trust me, but because he knew how my ex had hurt me.] Then, she tried to make it sound like I had been trying to hook up with my ex.
I said I forgave her, and we were on good terms again, or so I thought. One night, I was talking to my boyfriend, and he started telling me that my best friend had came over to his house earlier that day to talk to him. Then he told me that she was STILL saying that I was trying to get with my ex & basically that I cheated on him.
Luckily for me, my boyfriend didn't believe her at all, because everytime she tried to get me to hang out with my ex, I called him & let him know what was going on. Well, after that, I realized we couldn't be friends anymore. She called me a slut & a bitch & spread rumours about me around school. [If you read my other thread about the teacher at my high school, this is the girl I was talking about.] On top of it, her MOM was instigating all of it. Her mom called me all of those names, too. Nobody believed her rumours, fortunately.
After our "break up," I contacted some old friends I had lost because of her. They forgave me for how I had acted while I was with her, and we're all friends again. Everyone has told me that I'm much better off without her.
For the past few months, I've been trying really, really hard to let go of everything that happened & be happy again. I know it was really hard on my boyfriend, because I was upset all the time & I would take it out on him alot. I had nobody to turn to, because I did't want anyone to see me as weak, especially when EVERYONE was saying that I was better off without her.
A few weeks ago, in the midst of all of this, I found out she had a new best friend. This didn't bother me particularly bad. But then I found out that she made out with that friend's boyfriend while they were dating, and the friend had no idea. I didn't know what to make of this, but I pissed she called me a slut when I've never done anything the least bit slutty, and she turned around & did that.
A few days ago, something clicked inside of me. I don't know what it was or why it happened, but I just felt so happy. I thought back to everything that had happened, and I realized it really was for the better. I realized that my boyfriend had been there for me through the entire thing, & it brought us so much closer. I realized that I had had friends that I had been pushing away because of her not liking them, but they were there for me when I was going through all of this. They all really helped me find myself. I've finally starting living for myself. I've started dressing how I want to dress & being who I want to be. I do what I want to do, I think for myself. And one of the best things about it all? I've started going to church again. I found God again. She was an atheist, so for a long time, I pushed my beliefs down to be friends with her. [I have no problem with athiests, btw. I still have friends who are.] I feel so free, and so happy, and like a much better person. I feel stronger, and I honestly feel like I deserve to be this happy. I want nothing more to do with her, & it's an empowering feeling, knowing I can be who I want to be & I have friends who'll love me anyway.
So, there was really no point to this, I just felt like letting all of that out. :]
So, from about October of '06 to May of '07, I'd been going through a whole bunch of stuff. Family, school, friends, etc. were starting to pile up & it was really getting to me. Everytime I tried to turn to my best friend of five years, she would just get irritated with me. Even when we were just hanging out, she would make fun of me & just bring me further down. Eventually, it got to the point where she was purposely making me hang out with my ex-boyfriend. She knew everything he put me through & she knew that my boyfriend wouldn't like it at all. [Not because he didn't trust me, but because he knew how my ex had hurt me.] Then, she tried to make it sound like I had been trying to hook up with my ex.
I said I forgave her, and we were on good terms again, or so I thought. One night, I was talking to my boyfriend, and he started telling me that my best friend had came over to his house earlier that day to talk to him. Then he told me that she was STILL saying that I was trying to get with my ex & basically that I cheated on him.
Luckily for me, my boyfriend didn't believe her at all, because everytime she tried to get me to hang out with my ex, I called him & let him know what was going on. Well, after that, I realized we couldn't be friends anymore. She called me a slut & a bitch & spread rumours about me around school. [If you read my other thread about the teacher at my high school, this is the girl I was talking about.] On top of it, her MOM was instigating all of it. Her mom called me all of those names, too. Nobody believed her rumours, fortunately.
After our "break up," I contacted some old friends I had lost because of her. They forgave me for how I had acted while I was with her, and we're all friends again. Everyone has told me that I'm much better off without her.
For the past few months, I've been trying really, really hard to let go of everything that happened & be happy again. I know it was really hard on my boyfriend, because I was upset all the time & I would take it out on him alot. I had nobody to turn to, because I did't want anyone to see me as weak, especially when EVERYONE was saying that I was better off without her.
A few weeks ago, in the midst of all of this, I found out she had a new best friend. This didn't bother me particularly bad. But then I found out that she made out with that friend's boyfriend while they were dating, and the friend had no idea. I didn't know what to make of this, but I pissed she called me a slut when I've never done anything the least bit slutty, and she turned around & did that.
A few days ago, something clicked inside of me. I don't know what it was or why it happened, but I just felt so happy. I thought back to everything that had happened, and I realized it really was for the better. I realized that my boyfriend had been there for me through the entire thing, & it brought us so much closer. I realized that I had had friends that I had been pushing away because of her not liking them, but they were there for me when I was going through all of this. They all really helped me find myself. I've finally starting living for myself. I've started dressing how I want to dress & being who I want to be. I do what I want to do, I think for myself. And one of the best things about it all? I've started going to church again. I found God again. She was an atheist, so for a long time, I pushed my beliefs down to be friends with her. [I have no problem with athiests, btw. I still have friends who are.] I feel so free, and so happy, and like a much better person. I feel stronger, and I honestly feel like I deserve to be this happy. I want nothing more to do with her, & it's an empowering feeling, knowing I can be who I want to be & I have friends who'll love me anyway.
So, there was really no point to this, I just felt like letting all of that out. :]
