so i used to look like this -
but i now look like this -
i'm the one in the middle obviously!
as you can see that in the past 6 years i've pilled on the lbs and i'm pretty fat. You can see how bulky i look compared to my skinny blonde friend! i have really flabby arms at the top and my tummy and thighs are huge. quite frankly i'm fed up of being told i've got a pretty face but it's a shame about the rest of me. people don't seem to relaise that it hurts me to be talked about like that! i do think my face is pretty but my figure sucks but i like food a hell of alot so pretty much ate and ate all i wanted. stupid i know...
so anyways i've got to the stage where even though i'm not completeley disgusted by my apparence, i do look at myself and think 'what have i done?' if you look at my first pic i looked so beautiful (dodgy digital camera though!) and now i have wrecked myself. obviously my health is not at it's best due to my body carrying around excess weight but i'm still very active so wouldn't concider myself to be so fat i can't go about my daily life or anything. everyday i'm working out my arms at work (lifting 40'' tv's does that to you!) i rush around playing ball alot too, i dance for hours at a time every few nights and obviously having sex is a pretty good work out too (if in the right position obviously!!)
but the amount i eat is insane. i'll have either a big bag of chrisps or a sausage sandwich for breakfast. a footlong subway sandwich with cookie for lunch. and for dinner i'll eat a main meal - usually pasta or potatoes with chicken or something and some sweets (cakes, choccie...). oh and the worst part of all is that i only drink coke, dr pepper or really sugary tea. so is it anywonder that i'm so big when i put such crap in my mouth?
so when i woke up this morning i went downstairs and poured all the fizzy drinks down the sink and chucked out all random cakes and sweets that were in the cupboards (even my precious jar of nutella) my husband was asking if i was ok and i told him that i just don't want to eat shit anymore.
so i'm going to be eating a balanced diet - something i've been lacking for a good few years now. no more sugary fizzy drinks or tea. i need to drink more water anyways because that will make me fell full. and no more bad breakfasts!!! i'll have some ceral or fruit salad (i love fruit). for lunch i am going to make home made soups to bring into work. so i can heat them up and have them (gotta be good for me right?) and for dinner i'm lowering the amount of carbs i have with my meal and try and eat more meat and veg.
so this is going to be a long haul thing not an overnight fix. but hopefully it'll pay off and i'll start to loose some of my bulk. i'll be weighing myself once a week and will update here on how much i've lost (or if i've stayed the same) i don't feel comfortable putting my actual weight down do it'll just be how many lbs lost. also i'll do a weekly update here and how i'm doing and will make little posts throughout the week.
i'm posting this here because it's a big thing for me so any encouragement, motivation or even tips would be greatly appriciated. so wish me luck guys and dolls... lets hope i'll no longer be the 'girl with a pretty face and shame about the rest'.
but i now look like this -
i'm the one in the middle obviously!
as you can see that in the past 6 years i've pilled on the lbs and i'm pretty fat. You can see how bulky i look compared to my skinny blonde friend! i have really flabby arms at the top and my tummy and thighs are huge. quite frankly i'm fed up of being told i've got a pretty face but it's a shame about the rest of me. people don't seem to relaise that it hurts me to be talked about like that! i do think my face is pretty but my figure sucks but i like food a hell of alot so pretty much ate and ate all i wanted. stupid i know...
so anyways i've got to the stage where even though i'm not completeley disgusted by my apparence, i do look at myself and think 'what have i done?' if you look at my first pic i looked so beautiful (dodgy digital camera though!) and now i have wrecked myself. obviously my health is not at it's best due to my body carrying around excess weight but i'm still very active so wouldn't concider myself to be so fat i can't go about my daily life or anything. everyday i'm working out my arms at work (lifting 40'' tv's does that to you!) i rush around playing ball alot too, i dance for hours at a time every few nights and obviously having sex is a pretty good work out too (if in the right position obviously!!)
but the amount i eat is insane. i'll have either a big bag of chrisps or a sausage sandwich for breakfast. a footlong subway sandwich with cookie for lunch. and for dinner i'll eat a main meal - usually pasta or potatoes with chicken or something and some sweets (cakes, choccie...). oh and the worst part of all is that i only drink coke, dr pepper or really sugary tea. so is it anywonder that i'm so big when i put such crap in my mouth?
so when i woke up this morning i went downstairs and poured all the fizzy drinks down the sink and chucked out all random cakes and sweets that were in the cupboards (even my precious jar of nutella) my husband was asking if i was ok and i told him that i just don't want to eat shit anymore.
so i'm going to be eating a balanced diet - something i've been lacking for a good few years now. no more sugary fizzy drinks or tea. i need to drink more water anyways because that will make me fell full. and no more bad breakfasts!!! i'll have some ceral or fruit salad (i love fruit). for lunch i am going to make home made soups to bring into work. so i can heat them up and have them (gotta be good for me right?) and for dinner i'm lowering the amount of carbs i have with my meal and try and eat more meat and veg.
so this is going to be a long haul thing not an overnight fix. but hopefully it'll pay off and i'll start to loose some of my bulk. i'll be weighing myself once a week and will update here on how much i've lost (or if i've stayed the same) i don't feel comfortable putting my actual weight down do it'll just be how many lbs lost. also i'll do a weekly update here and how i'm doing and will make little posts throughout the week.
i'm posting this here because it's a big thing for me so any encouragement, motivation or even tips would be greatly appriciated. so wish me luck guys and dolls... lets hope i'll no longer be the 'girl with a pretty face and shame about the rest'.
