Dizzyray822
Well-known member
Hi Everyone,
Well....last January my husband accidentally left his email logged on and i snooped a little. Okay....so i didnt think i would find anything since i thought we were doing great. We had only been married like a year and a half.
Well...I found emails that had been written back and forth within the past year to a girl tht seemed to be from his past. He wrote things to her like how he remembered that one night that they had and how he wants to ravage her again and other pretty explicit things. She was encouraging him to work things out with his wife (me) and that he should get these bad thoughts out of his head of cheating and all. Well....when i confronted him he first kinda denied it, then he said he was sorry and said it was nothing but "just stupid emails." He said it meant nothing that he was just fooling around and that he hadn't seen her or even talked to her on the phone since we had been together. He ended up deleting all the emails before i had a chance to read more, which is good or bad i dont know...but....i dont know.
Well...that was six months ago and I can not trust him at all. I dont know if i feel the same for him anymore. I just dont know what I feel for him. To top it off...my husbands mother (my mother-in law) just found out that his father (my father in law) had been cheating on her for like their whole marriage. ANd honestly....i think my husband (thier son) knew what his father was doing. SO is he going to end up just like him???? It is just AWFUL!!!!!!
We never really talked it through like we should have or got counseling. I cant let it go....i'm still really hurt!!!!!
I just and so torn because i do care about this man, but i am only 21 and I have my entire life ahead of me. Do i really want to live in a relationship like this the rest of my life??? Its so new and already we have so many problems.
What do you think?????
Well....last January my husband accidentally left his email logged on and i snooped a little. Okay....so i didnt think i would find anything since i thought we were doing great. We had only been married like a year and a half.
Well...I found emails that had been written back and forth within the past year to a girl tht seemed to be from his past. He wrote things to her like how he remembered that one night that they had and how he wants to ravage her again and other pretty explicit things. She was encouraging him to work things out with his wife (me) and that he should get these bad thoughts out of his head of cheating and all. Well....when i confronted him he first kinda denied it, then he said he was sorry and said it was nothing but "just stupid emails." He said it meant nothing that he was just fooling around and that he hadn't seen her or even talked to her on the phone since we had been together. He ended up deleting all the emails before i had a chance to read more, which is good or bad i dont know...but....i dont know.
Well...that was six months ago and I can not trust him at all. I dont know if i feel the same for him anymore. I just dont know what I feel for him. To top it off...my husbands mother (my mother-in law) just found out that his father (my father in law) had been cheating on her for like their whole marriage. ANd honestly....i think my husband (thier son) knew what his father was doing. SO is he going to end up just like him???? It is just AWFUL!!!!!!
We never really talked it through like we should have or got counseling. I cant let it go....i'm still really hurt!!!!!
I just and so torn because i do care about this man, but i am only 21 and I have my entire life ahead of me. Do i really want to live in a relationship like this the rest of my life??? Its so new and already we have so many problems.
What do you think?????