User35
Well-known member
Oh ladies Im in DEEP.
I have such a long fucked up story but I'll try to keep it short.
Im married and about a year a go I had to move away for a 6 month stint for a job about 300 miles from my home. My hubby stayed and I would come up every or everyother weekend to visit. Well in the mean time I met a great guy and we became really close friends. We both knew we had intense feelings for eachother but since we were both married we had to keep it strictly platonic. We did for a while but after a few drinks one night it went "there". We continued our very happy and intense relationship up untill a few months ago .He was extremely unhappy with his wife, and honestly I was bored with my husband. I know it absolutely does NOT make our love and relationship right or justifiable. I felt wrong at times while we were in our relationship,I still do at times ( my husband knows I told him when he had some suspicions and asked me). I always have and still know it was wrong but ladies I loved and still love him like Ive never loved anyone else. After all the time we spent together and the promises we both made for the future he decided a few months ago to stop contacting me because it was too hard to keep up on this double life he was leading with me.
This is where u guys come in. Im in a crazy/ stressful time of my life right now and I miss him and feel like I need him so much. Im thinking about contacting him again. I know that probably isnt the best idea but damn my heart misses him so bad. I have a lot to ask him..I feel like he ditched me and Im upset, I am very mad at him, myself and the whole situation at times but then I just want him with me again more than anything. I know Im a strong successfull woman but he can bring me to my knees like nothing or nobody else ever has. I want him back in my life...i dont think its really possible or healthy. I dont want to seem weak by contacting him but my heart aches for him.
I have such a long fucked up story but I'll try to keep it short.
Im married and about a year a go I had to move away for a 6 month stint for a job about 300 miles from my home. My hubby stayed and I would come up every or everyother weekend to visit. Well in the mean time I met a great guy and we became really close friends. We both knew we had intense feelings for eachother but since we were both married we had to keep it strictly platonic. We did for a while but after a few drinks one night it went "there". We continued our very happy and intense relationship up untill a few months ago .He was extremely unhappy with his wife, and honestly I was bored with my husband. I know it absolutely does NOT make our love and relationship right or justifiable. I felt wrong at times while we were in our relationship,I still do at times ( my husband knows I told him when he had some suspicions and asked me). I always have and still know it was wrong but ladies I loved and still love him like Ive never loved anyone else. After all the time we spent together and the promises we both made for the future he decided a few months ago to stop contacting me because it was too hard to keep up on this double life he was leading with me.
This is where u guys come in. Im in a crazy/ stressful time of my life right now and I miss him and feel like I need him so much. Im thinking about contacting him again. I know that probably isnt the best idea but damn my heart misses him so bad. I have a lot to ask him..I feel like he ditched me and Im upset, I am very mad at him, myself and the whole situation at times but then I just want him with me again more than anything. I know Im a strong successfull woman but he can bring me to my knees like nothing or nobody else ever has. I want him back in my life...i dont think its really possible or healthy. I dont want to seem weak by contacting him but my heart aches for him.
silly silly me
how do I get rid of all these feelings for him, us, all of it out of my head so I can feel happy and normal again ???