Wow. I just now meandered in and read this.
I don't even know what to say but I can tell you if your daddy does go on to the next life, he will always be with you. You just won't get to see him, but he'll be there. He'll be there for all your special moments and be with your mom. You won't be alone-ever.
You may feel alone, but believe me when I tell you - you are never alone.
I will pray for this situation, and I will pray for you and your family. This is a scary time, and I will pray for your continued strength. *HUGS*