miszjenny
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Hi everyone! I hope everybody's having a great summer. It's been a stressing summer for me in the contrary. There was this pageant that I got forced to join in April and they held it this saturday Aug. 16th. I was terrified knowing that I will be performing by myself. I chose to dance instead of doing something cool like putting make up on someone hehe coz i thought it would be easier and faster just to dance... hmm not to mention i can't dance lol. Anyway, so the day finally came and i was terrified and beyond nervous. I know ppl could notice my tensed face (oh goshness); i felt like a dead person trying to smile. It came to the scariest moment i didn't want to get on stage... i had to dance last. Everybody did their talents just fine and this little girl did a tahesian dance and everybody had fun. Grrr I got intimidated by her coz she's gonna make me look bad me dancing hawaiian dance. It was so embarrassing enough for me to stand in front of a lot of ppl and to perform a dance(when i know i can't dance) waaaaaa i was crying inside. I did most of the steps good until i got to the part where I need to look at the ppl on my back and shake my buns lol. Grrrr i saw these ppl looking at me and i got hysterical. I was so embarrassed so i stopped dancing. I was supposed to do a freestyle but I decided not to do it anymore and ppl where like looking at me and i was standing there half dead! I did a pose so ppl know i was done dancing lol. it was so funny and even i laugh at myself. now i just need to tell everyone what had happened at the pageant to make me feel maybe a little better. I feel so stupid right now =(. So now I am blaming myself kekeke for choosing to dance when i know i can't dance :-(. sigh