Yes, I know where being in an abusive relationship is coming from. My parents have been in an abusive relationship since I was born. They are still together because of traditional Indian customs. I have been around it my whole life. And as much as I acknowledge it and want different for myself, I guess I am attracted to that because that's all I have known my whole life. Still, thats no excuse.
He wasnt like this before. For once, he was the guy that actually treated me right. My girlfriends liked him, and even they thought he was a great guy. of course, he isnt perfect, no one is, so there were a few things i accepted. but i swear, in the beginning it was him showing me how much u liked me. now, after talking for about 7-8 months, i finally gave in and started a real relationship to him. i thought i was ready to get rid of all my past insecurities and hurt. he didnt spoil me or take me places, etc. but it was okay for me. he was actually there to listen to me and for once a guy made me feel good. i thought he was something i have been waiting for so long. i finally let down my guards. as soon as i did, this is what i get. believe me, i dont rely on guys because i have been hurt by so many different guys, and i always have my guard up. but, not only did i but my friends thought this guy really really geniunely liked and cared for me. when i told them what happened, they were beyond shock. all these things run thrw my mind, liek maybe he cheated on me while he was in canada, and he is acting liek this out of guilty conscience. or soemthing. whatever it is, he is out of my life. but u know what sucks-he can move on, prob already has. but once again, its me that has to pick up the pieces and find it on my own to move on and get the hope back.
thanks for everyones advice. it really means alot that u guys are reading this and responding. i have alot of stress lately on finding a job, family and other things. i thought this is the one area in my life that made me sleep a little easier at night, but now it seems like its keeping me up at night.