You can beat yourself up or you can learn from it. Calmly look at the situation and try to truly understand what was going on in your mind and what your emotions were. Baby steps from there. Know that you will make mistakes. But there's no time like the present to work toward fixing something you don't like.I was afraid to post this so I hesitated because I don't want to be the Debbie Downer in this thread, but my February was a fail and I need to document it somewhere to really keep reading this. In total I spent around 650$ on makeup, makeup tools and skincare (which as you know I picked up my most expensive serum with a very generous giftcard that led me to not pay much).
I don't know how I fell of the wagon even harder when I was already off, but I had a lot of stress situations these past months and February in particular was not a good month in my job at all. I had a couple of days off work in the last week of Feb, so I decided to back2Mac some items. The closest Mac counter to me is actually in France (I live about half an hour away from it) and being in a "holiday mood", I got a little too spendy. At Mac I qualified for four lipsticks (my mom was with me so she picked two and I picked two), but then I also picked up a blush and a prep and prime for my lips. Being located in a department store I stopped at the Estee Lauder counter to pick up my replacement foundation (which btw has gone up 5€ in my country, I don't know if this is a worldwide thing?)
Then I passed the Chanel counter and saw the brush I was wanting for ages but isn't available in my country anymore, so I snapped that up. And then of course I topped it off with a visit to Sephora - when in France I guess - where I racked up the highest of bills on things I didn't need or didn't need that soon (the Nars blush palette, two Nars lipsticks, a KVD blush that I love the tone but hate the packaging so that already went to my mom, three Guerlain products and a new Sephora micellar water).
I know it's done but I can't stop beating myself up over it, because at what time do I clean up my act...
The good news is that I really went through my collection and I decluttered even more: I did away with all my Mac blushes apart from two from last year and the new one, I got rid of at least 20 bronzers, 25 big lip crayons and 25 lipsticks. Most of these items were expired for some years and I just wanted to get rid of something. I only bought two new lipsticks to replace the decluttered ones so that is good I guess. I really need to take another look at my blushes and my eyeshadows and lipliners, I can't seem to declutter them that much. But at least now my storage has room to breath again and it's all put away neatly.
My focus is on this month and on April to try to be as good as possible. I had to buy two hairbrushes this month (does that count?) along with 2 replacement Beauty Blenders, but now I'm done with the replacements for a while. The only thing I will not be able to resist and will never tell myself not to get is the Les Beiges collection coming up, that has a special meaning for me.
I will however be more selective in my choices and limit it to three items. If those come online in March I will pick them up off the site and do a no buy in April (truly!). I will hold off now on buying anything until Les Beiges. And as May is my bday month I will ask for giftcards so I can use them for future repurchase of foundation and perfume (finished one the month and my other one is halfway through)
Looking back I realize that the first items I bought this month from that Asia Chanel collection were a mistake, I didn't need it. However I actually took back the lipstick I decluttered to my mom because I did away all my pink lipsticks, so sparkle or no sparkle I will be wearing that thing.
Lucky my mom is a good sport lol.
I am glad to get this off my chest. Thank you for letting me post these long rambles and I just want to say that you all did very well this February! I'm hoping to come in with few words myself in March/April!
TLDR: thanks for letting this be a place for me to share my journey, I am hoping it's more uphill from here on out!